Bah Humbug

I hate Christmas. it used to be my favorite holiday, i always had one thing that I really wanted which I almost always got and this year the only thing I wanted was for my family to stop falling apart. Instead I got a pair of toe socks,,, and I suppose some other nice things. I suppose that's okay for now, I love toe socks.

More Okay Than Not I Suppose

You say, sometimes, it's like I hardly know you
And maybe there's somethings I never showed you
Sometimes you're certain, but just can't get it working at all

You say to yourself somebody better
Will understand you more than I ever
I'll shake his hand, and smile, and say I understand. Well I do
That don't mean I don't think about you

I know we
Said it's just as well that I won't keep, keep you for myself
But, I don't want to see you happier with somebody else

Oh, why can't you just be lo-lo, lo lo-lo, lo lonely?
Why can't you just be lo-lo, lo lo-lo, lo lonely?
Why can't you just be lo-lo, lo lo-lo, lo lonely?
I know you need someone too
This just feels so soon

I know some things should just stay broken
I'm well aware this should remain unspoken
But I've been working on the things that I was learning all wrong, oh
I know sometimes I only twist ya
And maybe I'm too proud to say I missed ya
But what if here and now, I tell you that I'm all figured out?
Or maybe I just like how that sounds

I know we
Said it's just as well that I won't keep, keep you for myself
But I don't want to see you happier with somebody else

Oh, why can't you just be lo-lo, lo lo-lo, lo lonely?
Why can't you just be lo-lo, lo lo-lo, lo lonely?
Why can't you just be lo-lo, lo lo-lo, lo lonely?
I know you need someone too
This just feels so

And I know it seems beneath me
But sometimes it's not so easy
To wish you well and let you go

And I say it's just as well
That I just can't keep you for myself
I don't want to see you happier with somebody else

Oh, lo-lo, lo lo-lo, lo lonely?
Why can't you just be lo-lo, lo lo-lo, lo lonely?
Why can't you just be lo-lo, lo lo-lo, lo lonely?
This just feels so
This just feels so,
Feels so soon

(Lo-lo, lo lo-lo, lo lonely?)
Why can't you be
(Lo-lo, lo lo-lo, lo lonely?)
Why can't you be
(Lo-lo, lo lo-lo, lo lonely?)

This just feels so,
This just feels so,
This just feels so soon

I Didn't Write This But I Love It...

I’m not sure how to start this, or even why I’m writing it other than it being Christmas and it seems like an appropriate time. I miss you. I thought time would make it easier, but the truth is I miss you more every day. I know you’re happy; I can see that and I’m honestly glad. I’m not saying this with any agenda: I love you. I’ve loved you from the moment I saw you, and every day since. You might not want anything to do with me, and on some level I understand why. My biggest fear isn’t that you don’t love me anymore, or even that you might hate me. It’s that you’ll forget about me. I couldn’t bear that because I think about you every day. Sometimes those thoughts make me sad, sometimes they make my heart ache. More often they make me smile because I think about what an incredible person you are, and the memories you’ve given me.

I’m sorry for the times I went a little crazy; I thought shutting you out would make me miss you less. I’m sorry for the things I didn’t do when we were together. If I could do it again I would be great for you, and I would never let you go.

Dimple Pimple Piercings

What is it about some people that makes them so damn easy to talk to? Said way too much last night. Things I have never said to anyone. And should never say to anyone. Where to go from here? I have no one to blame but myself for the ruins that lie before me. I have lost the one person I care about most. And it's not even like their hands simply slipped out of mine. They let go. They want this. How? Why? I just want things to go back to normal. I just want things to fucking be okay.

If you love them, let them go.