Charming the One Eyed Trouser Snake?

Kayaking is so much fun =] Especially when your best friend decides to find out if the paddles float....

Olivia

To my disgusting rude sister. Seriously you are twenty fucking years old GROW UP AND CLEAN UP AFTER YOURSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This is fucking disgusting and I shouldn't have to clean this up. There is period blood on my bathroom floor for Christ sakes!!!!! FUCKKKK

In My Head

I close my eyes as my dreams shatter into hundreds of THOUSANDS OF
pieces, each as sharp as a razor. Ready to cut my veins open and draw a million MILES
of blood. The blood seeps and screams down my wrist, each drop becoming a little farther AWAY
And my heart aches, and yearns, and my eyes cloud over FROM
exhaustion, and dizziness, and the only thing I can see clearly in my head is YOU

Baby

What is this pain that I
cant stand? I once LOVED
it when you looked me in the eye and YOU
called me BABY

Between The Lines

WE'RE ALREADY WET AND WE'RE GONNA GO SWIMMING WHY CANT I BREATH WHENEVER I TH[I]NK ABOUT YOU
WHY DO YOU A[L]WAYS DO THIS T[O] ME WHY COULDN'T YOU JUST SEE THROUGH ME
CUZ I CAN'T SEE JUST WHERE I AM MEANT TO BE REPLAY THE SCENE O[V]ER AND OV[E]R AND OVER
I RUN TO YOU OVER AND OVER I FALL FOR [Y]OU OVER AGAIN D[O]N'T MAKE ME CHANGE MY MIND I WON'T LIVE TO SEE ANOTHER DAY I SWEAR IT'S TR[U]E BECAUSE A GIRL LIKE YOU IS I[M]POSSIBLE T[O] FIND YOU'[R]E IMPOSSIBLE TO FIND THIS IS NOT WHAT I INT[E]NDED I ALWAYS SWORE [T]O YOU I'D
NEVER T[H]ERE WHEN YOU NEED IT [A]ND I DO WANT YOU TO K[N]OW I HOLD YOU UP ABOVE EVER[Y]ONE AND I D[O] WANT YOU TO KNOW I THINK YO[U]'D BE GOOD TO ME AND I'D BE SO GOOD TO YOU I THOUGHT I SA[W] A SIGN SOMEWHERE BETWEEN THE L[I]NES OR MAYBE IT'S ME MAYBE I ON[L]Y SEE WHAT I WANT
I CAN TAKE IT IF YOU NEED TO TAKE THIS OUT ON SOMEONE THAT [L]ITTLE THING WITH HER HEAD HELD SO HIGH TALKING TOUGH WHEN I CUT MYSELF SO I CAN FEEL SOM[E]THING I KNOW IS NOT A LIE
E[V]ERYONE WANT A PI[E]CE OF YOU EVE[R]YONE TA[K]ES A PIECE OF ME
THAT ONE STI[N]GS A LITTLE I'M ALWAYS IN THE MIDDLE I D[O]N'T EXPECT BUT TRY ME AND YOU WILL AL[W]AYS FIND ME HERE

Driving Me Insane, and Keeping Me Awake

There's a red dot on my ceiling that's driving me insane, and keeping me awake. My ears are still ringing from the loud music, my legs still ache from dancing, and my heart still hurts from watching you walk away. And there's a stupid red dot on my ceiling which isn't helping because it's driving me insane, and keeping me awake. It must be a reflection on my light fixture of my alarm clock, because that is the only red thing in my room. And I will lie to you and say there is a red dot on my ceiling that is driving me insane, and keeping me awake, and I will tell myself the red dot is keeping me awake. But the truth is that every time I close my eyes, I see your face. Which drives me insane, and is keeping me awake. So I keep my eyes open and stare at the red dot on my ceiling which isn't helping because in the red I see your shoes, and your chipped nail polish, and your red lips. And the memories of you are driving me insane, and keeping me awake.

Sigh

Sometimes I think I can fly,
but then I look down and get too scared to try.

Sometimes I really plan on telling you,
but then I start to cry.

Sometimes I put a blade to my wrist,
but then I realize I don't actually want to die.

Sometimes I know what you're about to say,
but all the comes out is a sigh.

You make me want to try, boy, you make me cry, make me want to die.
And when I tell you I love you all you hear is my quiet hearts *SIGH*

Stealing Her Lips

"I'm not here to judge." She spoke softly, a smile stealing her lips. She barely paused a moment before reaching over and lowering the other strap on Lacey's shoulder. Lacey smiled back, still blushing. Kara moved close on the bed and ran her hand down Lacey's arm reaching to intertwine fingers. Lacey's breath caught in her chest as her heart beat sputtered. Kara's nostrils filled with vanilla musk "God she smells good" was her last thought before their lips met. Her lips were warm and soft, and so were hers. Like a spark of light in a dark, cruel world. Her lips were there, and then all too soon they weren't. The kiss left Lacey wanting more, and hating herself for doing so.

Evanescence

It was October,
the night that I died, silver rain fell.
I could feel the missing piece from my soul.
then felt as the lithium began taking over me.
"Call me when you're sober" his sing song voice whistled through the phone.
After I had fallen no one could bring me to life.
No one could wake me up inside, and I became everybodies fool.
I was going under, and could feel my immortal coming to carry me away.

Smiles in Their Music

"Those were the days." She spoke softly so that nothing could hear but the walls around her.
"I miss those days." She said to no one in particular. Patricia shut her eyes as a boy ran through her memories, and the school sprinklers. Then he put his foot on it, shooting the water at her. Very few people questioned when they showed up to stage band and hour later, soaked. Patricia and Darren were always getting into shenanigans. They spent every Wednesday together before stage band, and the adventures didn't even end when class started. Every once in a while there would be two notes slurred together that looked like a smiley face. When this did happen they would both take their focus off playing and look at each other, wondering if the other one noticed. They would laugh at the same time, knowingly.
"We both knew what the other one was thinking." She almost let herself smile at the memory, but stopped herself.
"I miss those days when we had so many of the same thoughts." But things weren't so easy anymore, things were no longer simple, Patricia and Darren no longer shared the same bond, there were now sharps in place of naturals, and flats where sharps once lied. He no longer looked at her the same way, and now neither of them notices the smiles in their music.

Blargh.

Okay... I didn't want to do this but I am going to anyway. Seriously wasting the next fortyfive minutes of my life to say something to someone that everyone else is too chicken to say. Quit feeling sorry for yourself and be happy with your life. I am not going to go off about how my life is worse and blah blah blah (because apparently I do that?) You misinterpret a lot... Shit happens. You may think your life is so bad but really it isn't as bad as you think and I am so sick of seeing you pity yourself and trying to get everyone else feel sorry for you. I can't have a five minute conversation with you without hearing about everything that went wrong with your week. You need to lighten up because you bring the people around you down. I know people with far worse problems who are happy and don't complain nearly as much as you do. I am sorry that you overreacted to what I said and deleted all your stuff off Facebook and cried all night and overdosed on meds because you were crying... You have no right to blame all that on me. It wasn't really because of what I said it was how you reacted to it. What I said was true and not "bitchy" at all and I stand by that. I refuse to feel guilty for something I didn't do. There really is no more people can do but lock their doors and not leave expensive things in their vehicle. I am really sorry about how harsh this will all sound to you because yes, you are very sensitive, but I have tried being gentle and it has gotten us nowhere. And I am sorry that you damn near killed yourself, I do feel strongly for you as a person, believe it or not I have a lot of respect for you because you take school seriously and succeed in nearly everything you set your mind to. That takes a lot of (insert long, intellectual, positive words here.) So I think it is very sad that you took what I said so seriously and dramatically that you hurt yourself. But we are all responsible for our own actions. Really you cant say its my fault that you deleted a bunch of your stuff off Facebook because of me? That's really... Ridiculous. I really think you need help. Please get help, for your sake and for the sake of everyone around you. If you destroy a bunch of memories and almost kill yourself because of a small comment you need help. I want to say more but honestly, I don't have time.

I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE FUCK I DID

Seriously I am going to be the only person in the world to get fired while being paid 3 dollars an hour.

In the Land of Milk & Honey...

In the land of Milk & Honey...

1.Spiders never leave the ceiling
2.There is always milk for the cereal
3.There's only adverts for things I actually want to buy
4.Its always warm when it is raining
5.Laundry does itself
6.My cell phone never needs charging
7.People don't steal ipod's
8.I get paid for being lazy
9.Hot water never runs out!
10.My best writing ideas come to me while I'm not in the midst of trying to sleep
11.There is a calculator in my head
12.My teeth are perfect
13.Boyfriends hate video games
14. Rainbows don't run away
15.Wild animals enjoy posing for photos
16.I have amazing metabolism and don't have to feel guilty about eating whatever I want
17.Money is never a problem
18.I can breath and see underwater therefore eliminating my fear of water
19.Crickets are as beautiful to look at as to listen to
20.Communication is easier
21.Chocolate is never unavailable to you
22.Traveling is incredibly cheap
23.My cat really does understand how I feel
24.Bras always fit
25.I could sleep well at night
26.Pets can feed themselves
27.Pets use the toilet
28.My hair goes where I want it to go
29. Hair never gets "roots" your hair stays that color until you change it
30. Hair never gets frizzy or split ends
31.All toothpaste tastes yummy
32.The smell of your body wash stays on you
33.safety pins never open and poke you
34.tattoos can move
35.the pants always fit
36.I always remember my dreams
37.Mail is quicker
38.traffic does not exist
39.drugs aren't addicting, expensive or bad for you