Proudly Bending Over

Last year I did something I've never done before...
And I have enjoyed doing it ever since!
The first time is thrilling and exciting, and you feel proud of yourself!
The first time can be a little painful.. but the more you do it, the less it hurts.
I can do it on my floor, I have done it at school, in my car, and even in my living room.
I have bragged to my friends about it, and the first time I did it I even made my dad watch!
I will not keep it to myself, I don't care if everyone knows!

-Proudly touching my toes since two thousand ten. =]




P.S.(to Alisha & Thomas) Who's got the dirty mind now..?

MEOW.... =^.^=

I Will Always Love You.

I don't know what has taken over,
All I want is your head on my shoulder.
Baby I can't help it,
Can't deny it any longer.
This feeling inside me,
Is growing stronger and stronger.

Hey Paradise, Put Up a Parking Lot

I hate not being able to say what I want... because I know it would screw certain things up. I have been especially good at screwing things up lately. Too important to me to risk anything... =/ There's so much I wish I could say... Or do.. I hate it when you decide to say something, type it out, stare at it for five minutes and erase it. Too Many Things Left (and better left) Unsaid.

Fuck My Life.

Had a really bad day... Screwed up my monologue. I know I know no one really cared and I wont be docked more than like one mark... but I am really disappointed in myself. I cant believe I froze like that... At least a certain someone liked it I guess. First compliment he has ever given me, which was much appreciated. Math was shitty... Mr. Stade drives me crazy. He isn't fair at all ans doesn't help or even teach as much as he should. So it looks like ill be getting an I on my report card... Oh its not because I am doing badly in math, I am missing ONE test. He wouldn't even consider docking marks for the test so I wouldn't have an I. And it is one hundred and fifty percent BULLSHIT that Kim gets things voided for her just because she didn't do them. Things that I would get marks docked for if I didn't have done. Like what the fuck is that? Why is she so special? If I didn't get something done it was probably because I was helping her because he cant be bothered to actually teach her how to do something. Oh and my grade is social studies is fanfuckingtastic right now. I'm glad I ran into Justin... He always gives the most amazing hugs and I really needed it. In fact I need one right now. Not like my boyfriend would come over tonight... He's probly on his stupid computer playing wow with Blaine. Besides if he were here he would just tell me how negative I was being and tell me to stop crying. I really really hate it when people tell me to stop crying. You are supposed to make me feel better, not make me feel worse by telling me I'm being stupid and should feel better. Oh yeah and according to my mom I am way too fat... I am trying to lose weight.. I really am. I didn't think I was THAT fat... but I guess I was wrong. Fuck I hate today. Just make it end...

Ich Mochte Schokolade

I thought it appropriate to have the title in German considering I am supposed to be working on my German in this class right now. >.< I want chocolate.

Where To Go From Here

I don't know where to go from here. I am still pissed about yesterday.. and upset. How dare he? It was unfucking believable. It felt good to go for a nice long walk, get some fresh air. Lets all just walk through a giant square in hopes of coming through the other side to an alternate universe, shall we? Make everything wrong turn into right and make the pain go away. Three fucking hours, are you serious?? Like come on. Ugh. Lunch today did'nt exactly make me feel any better. A place I used to belong I am now an outcast and considered an outsider... then again maybe I never really belonged there. Maybe thats why I subconciously stopped going there. I guess Cody has been rude to me right from the start. He was an asshole to me in Earth Science last semester. What made me think things changed? He doesnt fucking know me at all.

"Dont judge a book by its cover"

One of my best friends didnt even stick up for me... Hmm

Dear Banff- Please make my day good, Sincerely- Unhappy.

Faster Than You Can Say Sabotage

I love this song, its catchy and sassy [and that rhymes...}

Not super happy right now... with myself, my boyfriend, my friends (or there lack of??) Then again maybe I'm just being a winy selfish little whatever you want to call me. One thing that seems to be good at the moment is my photography, =] I sold two photos today got $42 and scratch mag is coming out on the fifteenth! I should get a copy or two in the mail and $130. When I went to boot camp looking around at all the amazing talented, committed photographers my age made me feel like I could never go anywhere with it. I don't have the talent those other girls had and if you want to make it in photography you have to be really good. I don't know what I have, if anything but I am starting to reconsider photography as a career path. Its something I enjoy, so why not? Besides, that could lead into all sorts of things I love like wild animals, or pornography. (The only funny thing about the last sentence is that you think I am joking. Am I? Maybe, maybe not.) The point of the matter IS that I love photography and have absaposatutely nothing else that I am even a little bit good at. Then again I constantly question my ability with a camera (especially when I make the rookie mistake of leaving the lens cap on) You think after two years you would get used to something like that.

Hmm

I write like
Chuck Palahniuk

I Write Like by Mémoires, journal software. Analyze your writing!

Rawr

What is Love?

Love is being the owner of the company that makes rape whistles. Beccause even though you started the company with good intentions trying to reduce the rate of rape, now you don't want to reduce it at all cause if the rape rate declines then you'll see an equal decline in whistle sales...Without rapists, who's gonna buy your whistles?