Do I classify as a dilettanti?

Drama Club

Stage Band

Art Club

Belly Dancing

Yoga

Hula Hooping
Free Press

Not to mention photography and reading...

I love to learn new things. Am I a spoiled brat? Spoiled yes. Brat no. Maybe I don't have a job, and maybe I do get money handed to me but I need these things... I feel like right now is my last year to actually live like a young adult. Why not make the best of it? Next year I will be by myself and have to worry about bills and being alone and shit. Which by the way scares the bejeesus out of me.! I don't know what I am going to do... I love photography but its more of a hobby. I am not good enough at it to take it anywhere and make any money off of it. There is writing... But honestly I am not a great writer. Lately I have been so discouraged from writing, its horrible. I actually almost dread going to writing class now which is just unacceptable. There are some kids in the class that I seriously want to punch in the fucking face. I have to put my headphones in now and blast my music to drown their immaturity out. It's AWFUL. I feel so bad for Ms.Little... She is so frustrated with them and I can see in her face that she is just hurt because they are so disrespectful. Ugh. Not to mention I feel incredibly belittled in the class. I hate reading my stuff out because my stuff isn't half as good as everyone elses. Including the kids that aren't taking it seriously! I could become a teacher but to be honest I want to make more money... Not to mention I have no freaking clue how I am going to get accepted ANYWHERE my grades have never been great, I have next to zero volunteer work because I live in the middle of nowhere and can't get rides, hardly any work experience because frankly I have to have a good experience in the working field... Blargh. =/